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Miyuki and Sylph
11 March 2012 @ 11:07 am
It's been a while hasn't it? Since I last went here or posted here?

I don't remember why I left anymore. Looking at the last entry... That's when I turned a new page, didn't I? That's when things started to change for the better.

I love the time that has gone by since then. It has defined me in so many ways and I've grown so much in the past 3 years or so. I'm glad I was able to meet such wonderful people and spend so much time with them. I'm really happy...

But maybe, in the midst of happiness, there are still times when you can't help but feel a bit sad. Times when you wish all that growth could just be kicked into the gutter. When you wish that you weren't significant anymore. That you aren't known for what you are known for.

I guess this is just disappointment. A small one but for some reason its still buried deep in my heart. I thought by finally growing past expectations, growing past limitations, I'd get what I wanted. Be it love, friendship, self-confidence, fame...

But maybe... I really just wanted the first two. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to feel genuine friendship again. It's those that I put on a pedestal and not anything else.

So when friends suddenly tell me I'm too good for something. That I shouldn't join cause its beneath me. That I'll just feel out of place and will just constantly complain about everything if ever I get in...

I feel like a choice was taken away from me. The choice to join something not because of what it is but to join because the people I love and value are in there.

This is petty, I know. I shouldn't get this upset, I know. But...

It's human to get upset over the littlest things right?

I hope so.

I'll have to deal with this anyway. It's up to me to channel this being upset into something productive or something vindictive. And I'm torn when it comes to that. It's a mixture of pride but also of acceptance that's happening within me. I want to prove that I can get along with everyone and that I can fit anywhere but at the same time I acknowledge that I can't do that. That there will always be instances that I won't be able to fit in and that I'm trying just to make myself less upset about it. But it always ties back to the people.

I want to meet people more than play with characters that I've constructed or re-constructed.

Maybe that's a truth I haven't been facing and that's what's making me write this.

I've always wanted to belong.

Cause I haven't belonged to anything for so long.

...

Thank you LJ for still being here. Consoling all those who write in tears. Who can't speak out cause they need to appear strong.

Thank you for still being there for me.
 
 
Caution: disappointeddisappointed
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
13 June 2009 @ 09:25 pm
Oh kay, so now I'm back home after cosplaying for like 6-7 hours straight.

I'm tired. My feet hurt. I got rained on.

But you know what? I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THAT.

Lists Y/Y?Collapse )

TO ALL I MET TODAY, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT:

YOU GUYS WERE ALL AWESOME!!!!1!!1


THANK YOU FOR RESCUING A STRAY CHIBITALIA AT THE CON. I HAD FUN AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL THIS AUGUST <3 <3 <3

@ ryutsuki_sama: I'm sorry, I think I came too late to the ToyCon orz. Hope to meet you in the next event =)
 
 
Caution: bouncybouncy
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
10 June 2009 @ 07:22 pm
Oh hay. So I went to school today and lo and behold after the first class I find out that...

I GOT A BLOODY SCHOLARSHIP!!!1!

And there was stunnage of epic proportions.
 
 
Caution: ecstaticecstatic
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
Apparently I'm finished with the whole quarantine thingy. You know what this means?

I GET TO TAKE WESTERN CIVILIZATION AND POLITICAL GEOGRAPHY! AHAHAHAHahahahack-

Yes. I am a geek dork geek. Thank you for noticing.

Also: ryutsuki_sama what time are you going to attend the ToyCon on Saturday?

ETA: Making RP icons has made me realize the inadequacy of my own. THIS MUST BE REMEDIED POSTHASTE.
 
 
Caution: crazycrazy
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
03 June 2009 @ 06:12 pm
Coz I got tagged by almost_maybe YOU ASKED FOR IT HUN <3

Handwriting meme!

I... am a VERY irregular person.Collapse )
 
 
Caution: chipperchipper
 
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
I F*CKING HATE AIRPLANES!!!1!!1

Make of that what you will.

Makin' a list... Checkin' it... A bajillion times...Collapse )

Of course, IYKMYWKT this is a future fail!list.

ETA: I HAVE OFFICIALLY lost the game FAILED THE FIRST ITEM ON MY LIST DDDDDDX
 
 
Caution: bitchyAmbitious
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
29 April 2009 @ 01:29 pm
So tomorrow is the last day of April. Great.

I'll come out right in the open and say one thing.

I have accomplished absolutely nothing this month.

This should be probably easy to understand.

And so I have decided to kick myself for it because I've wasted a free month.

You have been warned.
 
 
Caution: disappointeddisappointed
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
21 April 2009 @ 11:46 am
Must write. Must post. Must DL. Must draw. Must canvas. Must sew. Must research. Must watch. Must read. Must crit. Must comment.

...

Seriously guys.

The first one that successfully lures me out of reading backdated entries of hetalia gets cookies morano glass coffee something.

Because...

I SURE AS HECK CAN'T STOP HO SHI-

Seriously. I need to WORK people.

Kthxbye.
 
 
Caution: distressedAddicted oh *bleep*...
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT AT ALL COZ

HETALIA'S GOT A SECOND SEASON!!!!

Yes. You are supposed to be blinded by love and sparkle.
 
 
Caution: ecstaticecstatic
 
 
Miyuki and Sylph
03 April 2009 @ 08:35 pm
Get -ing drunk and/or show off my Not!Awesome Paint skills.

Both of which I would be glad to use in finally finishing my post on Bulgaria. There is a HIGH probability that I will be using the latter one.

So I'm like going through backlogs as always and I finally see the fulfillment of my predictable prediction: someone making a Bulgaria post. Before I and my lame procrastinating ass do.

Not that I'm pissed or anything. No not at all. Was my fault anyways. And it was done by the oh so godly meltedpeep who totally owns and inspires when it comes to this kind of work. Aaaand I'm still partially torn between ROTFLOL-ing and smashing my face on Dad's new brand spanking ergonomic Italian keyboard.

The only good news is that it tackles World War Bulgaria while my little project is on what happens before the batsh*ttery of either of the wars... which is apparently the whole f*cked up time when Bulgaria was either dancing around like Prussia in the Balkans, under both Mommy and Junior Greece (both of them representing an empire) snarking up the whole place with sheep, or under Turkey knitting his underwear *shot*.

Which means I still have a bit of leeway... Or do I?

Fear not Bulgaria! One way or another, your past will be disassembled and made into sort of cracktastic crap!
 
 
Caution: nerdyZOMG Bulgaria!